Monday, June 30, 2008
I don't even know my last name!
Thanks, Carrie Underwood. I don't even know my last name...LOL. Mrs. Boyd, wait that's Mr. Chad's mom...No, that's probably Mr.Chad's dad's dad's MOM...LOL...so who am I?...LOL. I know I'm Christy Buettner Boyd now, but it still hasn't kicked in, yet. You know what I'm saying? I mean, come on...how many times have you written the old year on checks for the first month of the new year?
I LOVE my new last name and have had such an internal, mental war with myself over the whole changing it thing...LOL. The positive is that everyone can pronounce it...the negative is that it's different than my girls. So, I will keep them both, but use Buettner as my middle name. Easy enough, right?
Not so much...LOL...LOL!
I'll keep trying, though...and before long, I'll have it down...
Christy Buettner Boyd
Christy Buettner Boyd
Christy Buettner Boyd
Christy Buettner Boyd
Another Wedding...and so soon?...LOL
Well, it happened...one week to the day, Mary and JD were married in Winchester. It was a very...let's see how do i say it...very....uuhhmmm...very, SHORT ceremony...LOL. Lovely, but short...LOL. I must confess I knew this going into their blissful day, but thought Mary was kidding when she said that it was 8 minutes long...SHE DIDN'T LIE. In fact, Catarina recorded it and it took 8 minutes and 57 seconds...start to finish...LOL.Friday, June 27, 2008
...all that's left is a band of (white) gold
PWD...post-wedding depression...LOL. Yeah, I got it. I woke up Sunday not knowing what to do with myself. There was nothing to plan, nothing to write in my handy-dandy notebook, absolutely nothing to do!!! I mean, Monday was another story...linens to return, cake stand to take back, final payment on the reception...LOL, but the "day after" the wedding...truly, felt like the day after...I don't want to weird people out about marriage, but I did NOT feel any different. As we were going to sleep, Mr. Chad said, "goodnight, wife", but my heart did not leap out of my throat or anything like that...I guess those could have been butterflies in my stomach...I thought I was just nauseated...LOL. I have felt like his wife for so long that marriage to me was simply "legal" paperwork, or the day I would became eligible for medical insurance...LOL.
Don't get me wrong, either...I'm not unhappy or regretting my decision. I just thought--maybe--there would be a tad more mental fanfare...LOL. I thought--maybe--he would look more "googly-eyed" at me. I thought--maybe--a jazz band would play in my head every time he came around me. Nope. It was just another day in the life of Christy and Mr. Chad...LOL, and isn't that what marriage is?...just another day of living, breathing and being for someone else, yet not forgetting who you are and inviting them to share the experience with you.
All I can say, is that I have struggled to find happiness and inner peace for soooo long that I have failed to enjoy my life's ride, at times, and that from this day forward...I plan to be just as happy being in the passenger seat as I am at hogging the wheel.
Sincerely,
Christy Buettner Boyd...
****Not sure how to end my posts now??? Any suggestions??? I'm certainly not going to do Sincerely...LOL...and the count down is over...LOL. What do y'all think?
Monday, June 23, 2008
ONE Little Church
"And then, much later, I discovered that it had happened, right there in the church. I could recall, vividly, one by one, the people I had seen there—the solemn laborers with tired looks, the old women with gnarled hands. Life had knocked them around, but for a brief moment they were being refreshed by an ennobling experience. It seemed as they prayed, their worn faces lighted up and they became the very vessels of God. Here was my revelation. Suddenly I realized I was one of them. In my need I gained strength from the knowledge that they too had needs, and I felt an interdependence with them. I experienced a flood of compassion for people."
It takes 2 to make a thing go right...?
Are those even the lyrics to that Rob Base song? Regardless, wasn't sure what I wanted to blog about today...I could take the Aristotle approach...2 souls in one body...or the biblical approach...2 by 2...my marital experience...marriage, part II...the literary approach...Tale of 2 Cities...a career approach...2 weeks notice... a sports approach...2 strikes...or the mechanical approach...2-stroke engines...LOL.
OK, now I'm grasping...LOL, but with everything down to the wire...my mind is stirring with anticipation beyond measure. In fact, I've limited my speech b/c my train of thought is going so fast...get this...my mouth can't keep up. Go ahead, I hear y'all laughing right now.
The problem is...I am scared. There, I said it. I am scared about making this commitment. I am not scared about the mate I've picked. I am scared at failing him, or me for that matter. I ALWAYS said that if my first marriage failed (and we all know it did...LOL), I would NEVER...NEVER...NEVER do it again...Yet, here I am.
Although, Mr. Chad and I have been together for many years...I can't help but worry that I will one day forget his "kind" of food at the grocery, or that he does not like scary, squeamish films, or that he loved to play Yahtzee with his Mamaw V. I have never been so nervous in all my life. I am here at that place in my life that I have yearned for in my dreams and now...now, I want to run. Is that normal?
Nah, it's not normal, but neither am I...LOL. Due to unforeseen genetic make-up,...I have always been a runner. Let it go or get going--whichever is easier, but now I will make a conscious choice to not run...to plant my feet firmly on the ground and say, "Mr. Chad, I'm ready to stick this out and I'll stand by you--FOREVER." That's all I can do. I hope it's enough for him...for me...for us.
2,1...and so on. I hope you will stick with me.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
The Triple Crown
Over the years, Mr. Chad and I have placed many bets, mainly on the ponies...LOL, but now here we are, taking the biggest gamble of our lives...marriage! Stats are not good on the probability of marital success...not to mention actual marital bliss...LOL. Nevertheless, the race is on...LOL.