Life as a new Mrs.-AGAIN: The 11th Hour

Looks like a mess doesn't it?...LOL. I can't look without crying...LOL. Most of you, ...probably none of you have a clue as to what or where this is? I won't lie. I had no idea. This is the front of Casa di Giulietta. You still don't know do you?...It's the house of Juliet in Verona, Italy. Yes, that Juliet...the girl of Romeo's dreams...and it's where my "this is the man for me" moment begins today.

I got my new engagement ring and my proposal, though not the one planned according to Mr. Chad...I will try to put the story in written word, but could never do it justice...no matter how hard I try. Here it goes...

For weeks the letter, returned from the post office, stayed at the bottom of the stairs. Lonely. I felt like Lot's wife when I passed it and was scared to turn it over for fear of what I might find. So, I never did...until yesterday. The stairs were crammed with a plethora of who knows what. I made an attempt to straighten them and streamline the items there. I saw the envelope and as I went to move it...it fell and landed addressed side up...so, I looked. Casa di Giulietta Verona, Italy

I was stunned. What the heck? I admit, I was somewhat disappointed. I knew he had been trying to get a letter to Italy, but assumed it was going to the Pope for a blessing. Anyway, I knew what Casa meant, but who the heck were the Giulietta's...LOL? I placed the letter back on the stairs.

A few hours later I stopped by to see Mr. Chad on my way to meet with the caterers. I told him I had seen the envelope.He hands me a check to pay for some things and says...I'm sorry it's not going to happen. My heart stopped. (Everybody knows that we didn't get married last year after planning a wedding and those words pierced my heart.) I simply replied, "what?".

Life started in slow-motion. Colbie Caillat starts singing in the background, Take time to realize, and I loathe, for lack of better words, and against my own Psycho-babble BS that I feed my kids, I HATE that song! That your warmth is. Crashing down on in. Then he starts.

I love you and wanted to give you the best proposal I could. I love you and want you to be my wife. I have tried to get a letter to Juliet's House. You know, from Romeo and Juliet?...for your proposal. See people post love notes and write on the walls to their loved ones.

Take time to realize,That I am on your side . (His eyes get watery...and I can feel mine doing the same.) I sent a note to you asking you to be my wife and wanted them to put it on the wall and take a picture for you b/c I can not take you to Verona (nor would he even fly there with me, folks...LOL) Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.But I can't spell it out for you, Will you be my wife?

No it's never gonna be that simple No I cant spell it out for you...

If you just realize what I just realized, Then we'd be perfect for each other And will never find another Just realized what I just realized We'd never have to wonder i f We missed out on each other now.

Then it happened. the perfect moment in time...the perfect words said. I watched a tear fall from his eye and I was gone. I told him how I loved him like no other man in this world. Time was stopping altogether and I couldn't get the words out..."You're the man of my dreams...my best friend...the father of my future son..the person I want to fall asleep with EVERY night"...I couldn't get it out though, so I sat there and cried and we hugged and it was settled.

Take time to realize This all can pass you by..

Didn't I tell you

It's not always the same

No it's never the same

If you don't feel it to.

If you meet me half way

If you would meet me half way.

It could be the same for you.

I got my ring that evening, standing in his parents living room, preparing to go and water the tommy-toes...LOL.

Just realized what I just realized

We'd never have to wonder

BTW, did I tell you about my "new" favorite song?...LOL