79 Hill

O.K., so this title won't make much sense to most people, but it will to my family and that's what matters, but I'll tell you this... it was a magical place when I was a kid. Other than that, it has nothing to do with my wedding or this blog today except that it fit the number of today's entry. :o)

When planning a wedding, there are so many little details that sometimes you lose site of the long term and focus on the event. I do not want to be one of those people. A friend of mine recently said, "don't you think there are more important things to worry about other than the napkins?". Yes, I do, but I'm not sure how personal I want to get when the world has access to my thoughts.

I mean, I could share that having a baby is important to Mr. Chad and I, but that right now we are happy with my 2 beautiful girls and a baby can wait...but then I would have to go into it more and tell you how I'm scared that if I wait too much longer, I may be to old to enjoy it or to have a healthy pregnancy.

I could, also, share that he smokes and I LOATHE smoking(not smokers)...but I do know it's an addiction, and it's bad for him, for me, for our family. He almost died from cancer at a young age(20s) and it makes me physically sick and hinders my breathing. However, then I 'd have to tell you that I can't make him stop, he blames me for smoking most of the time and that I've cried myself to sleep over this issue several times.

I could share that I'm worried about being happy in the place that he loves more than anywhere on this earth, and that I ran from when I was 18, but then I would have to tell you that I love him and I hope that makes everything alright in the end.

So,...Yes, I know about the "Big Picture" and although you don't see it on here. It's in my thoughts all the time. None of us can can actually predict a happily ever after...but we can always hope for a work in progress.

79,78,77,76,75...and so on. I hope you will stick with me.